11 years....

Time flies. K and I are celebrating our 11th year of marriage. It felt just like yesterday that I was getting up on room floor as a single lady just because I do not want to ruin my wedding bed arrangements. To be honest, every sine I got "our" wedding bed, I did not sleep on it. Wanted it us to rasmikan mama-sama. (",) Slept in Nisha's room. The room Nish and I grew up together. *Adik rindu akak. Al-fatihah. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you... Semoga akan tenang di sana.*

K and I was planning a short vacation to Japan. We have not be able to go anywhere since I started my masters and he was busy with work.We finally agree to go for a quick one this year before I start class.... but.... believe it or not, we both got scam! By the time we wanted to purchase new flight tics, the price is just too ridiculous. Not sure why, every time K and I plan a trip to Japan, mesti tak kesampaian. Heh. Singa there is no Japan this month, hence, K and I decided to just plan another trip towards the end of the year. Insya Allah, I will be finishing my masters and it's time for me to really celebrate. I do feel that K and I have put so many celebration on hold. *Dah banyak yang long over due.* 

I have a couple of places that's on my mind but have really decided yet. Japan or maybe US. Why US??? Just because our visa is expiring in 2020. Better make use of it for the last time. *Lepas ni nam keen apply balik!.* Whichever country we decide to go, I know it will be definitely fun. I have not been able to travel for the past 18 months. I work during the week and attend classes on weekends. Haish. I really do feel that I deserve a LONG vacation away from work and once I am done with my masters. *Sikit lagi T. Sikit je lagi*. 

Anyway, what did we do on our anniversary?? Hurmmm... The night before our anniversary, K wanted me to go see his uncle "Pak Bib". In my heart, I was like... of all the days? Penat lah. I just finish work and heading to Ampang at 6.30pm? Macam serah diri untuk stuck traffic kut?! By the time we got to Ampang, it was already 8.15pm. He told me dah lambat. I was like ???!!! We are seeing an uncle??!! Takkan ada timing???!!! Believe it or not I was a little bit angry. While heading to one of the restaurant, he casually say that "Pak Bib" is actually Habib Jewels!!!! A few days back I told him I wanted to go there. I wanted to get myself a pair or earrings. In need of one. Hahhaha...  *Isn't he the sweetest. Well, I did not get the earring but I was just so moved that he wanted to get me a pair* I guess human rezeki T lah masa tu. I shall still get  pair when the time comes nanti. 

After having dinner, we took the opportunity to go see Abang Awie too. He has been unwell and that we just got to know that he just got out of surgery that morning. Alhamdullillah, he is looking good. (",)

As usual you all most wonder what we did for our anniversary dinner? It was us with Azhan and Fikh + Yeen. They were with us. They got us this delicious chocolate cake. It tasted like my Mama's choc cake. *Sedap gila nam mateyyyyy. I am not a fan of cake but this is just super yummy* Thank you #sahabats for always making an effort to make our day special. Sincerely from the bottom of my heart, I am grateful.

Ending this posting with a message to the man of my life, K.

Happy Anniversary Bee Love.! To many more years to come. Insya Allah. Aamiin. ❤️
I know you know that I love you very very very much. Much more than the very first time I lay my eyes on you. I know that for a fact because my love for you grow every single day! Chewahhhh??! 🤪 That’s the honest truth from the bottom of my heart. ❤️
We both have grown older. Wrinkles, fats, grey hair dan seangkatan dengannya but you are still the person I look forward to seeing every day. Every day before I start and end my day! I know that I will get through any obstacles in life because you are by my side. Your voice is music to my ears. Believe it or not even when your snore, it’s music to me. Why?! Because I know you are still alive. Hehe. ❤️
Thank you Bee for always believing in me. Beside Ma and Pa, you have always encourage me to go after what I want. You saw so much in me that I myself didn’t know I had the potential of “more”. Thank you for being my pillar of strength. ❤️
Tart nak Bee tahu than if the road gets tough and life gets hard, you will always have me. Sampai bila-bila. We will get through anything as long as we stick together. To more years of togetherness and adventures. Insya Allah. ❤️
Tart tak tahu what to get for you but I guess we shall plan on a holiday after I complete my semester four. Hopefully I am able to complete my masters on time and we can go celebrate all the celebrations that we’ve missed. Long overdue dah ni.  All our outings are on hold just so that I can focus on my studies. We shall plan for something soon. Must!
Let’s grow old together Bee. The best is yet to come. ☺️ There is no other man that I would like to spend my life with. ❤️
Thank you for being the best husband that I can ever hope for. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Most of all, thank you for being my friend. Tart sayang Bee sampai akhirat! ❤️

Love always, T.

Mama and Me.

Just Me and My Ma @ Din Tai Fung, KLCC. 

It was the 11th day of 2019 when I asked Ma to follow me to work. I was not feeling too well, hence I asked Helmi if I can work from home halfday. Helmi allows it. *Blessed to have Helmi as my boss after Lokman.* I wanted to take Ma for a meal. She wanted to have dim sum as long as I can remember. I have told her many times that I will take her to Ding Tai Fung in KLCC. *Kira nak tunai kan janji and I wanted to spend some time with my Ma.*

Ma and I took the lrt to KLCC. She met up with her friend while I went to work. *4 jam je pun.... *  Ma told me that she wanted to do some reading at the surau before meeting her friend. Later she told me that an Indonesian cleaner harassed her. That lady keep on bugging Ma. She scolded my Ma for seating in the surau. My Ma was reading the Quran! The other time she scolded my Ma is when my Ma was seating at a corner while she wait for her turn to part. She wanted to give way for others to pray since they  are in a hurry to go back to work. My Ma's intention is good! Haish... If I was there with Ma, I would have told the cleaner off. *Duduk tunggu waktu solat sambil baca Quran lah! Bukannya tidur atau borak-borak!* I told ma to file a complain. Believe it or not, while walking to Bukit Bintang mrt station, we bumped into her. My ma pointed out to me that was the lady that  yang keep on bugging her. She saw me and quickly walk away. I had a good look of her and I definitely remember her face. *Geram dalam hati samapi rasa nak tanya dia apa masalah dia* If my Ma plann to let it abd bot to do anything, I know I will. I tend to write to the management. *No one mess with my Ma. Heh.*

I joined Ma and her friend at Nyonya Colors before we both head to Din Tai Fung for our early dinner. I was so looking forward to spending some time with her. I don't know when was the last time I had the luxury of just me and ma. I hope that I am able to spend more time with Ma. I want to make memories. I am happy that Ma likes the dim sum and the vegetable we ordered was just super yummeh.

I wanted to show Ma the route I take every day to work. After having dinner, we walk all the way to Pavillion. Since it's quite a distance for Ma, we make couple of stops. We sat down for quick chats. It took me approximately one hour to to reach Bukit Bintang mrt station from KLCC. *Walaupun I can do it in half an hour but I enjoy every minute of that one hour. I got to be with Ma.*

I asked Ma will she do this again with me... the long walk... the chats in between our stops while  we walk... the impromptu  outing... ?! She says yes! Happy me. I told Ma the next outing, I will take her to Shangri-La. Ma did mention she wanted to have oysters. Hiks. Ma can have all the oysters there. Hehe.

Ma, I hope you enjoy yourself as much as I did. I want to be able to spend more time with you. Adik sayang Ma sampai akhirat. You are the love of my life. *Hugs*

Love always, T.

This is what we ordered! The veggie is super yummeh! 

My Ma. The love of my life. She is my everything.

Me and my countdowns....

The one that are closest to me knows that I do countdown whenever K is away. I will track the days of him being away and the days till we are reunited! *Hahahhaa.... Sweet ke tidak??? Poyo kering je kan?? Hahaha.... * It helps keep me at ease when I start counting. I am not clingy but I just look forward to having him back whenever he is away. I believe that ramai je macam me... Cepat mengaku! Hiks...

This time around... Buat kali pertama daam sejarah, (sejarah gitewwww) I don't know when he will be coming back. Haish. All I know his involvement is 40 days out of 60 days tapi schedule tak menentu! I so hate the idea of not knowing. *If the shoot to kat KL takpelah jugak.... Ini all the way kat Perak! Huaghhh.... Nak gi sana tak bleh. Weekdays kerja... Weekend class! SEDIHHHHHHHHH!!*

I have been unwell the last few days. Actually sebelum K leave for shoot lagi. I had to go to the docs like twice for medication. *Deman mengada kut. Just because dah tahu chinta hati nak pergi lama kan... Pengsan! Honestly I was really sick. I was away from work for almost 6 days.* Alhamdullillah, I got a bit a better when K left. I did not want him to worry while he  is away... dah lah tak tahu when he is coming back. He has been really sweet. He calls and text me all time ensuring that I take my medicine and that I get enough rest. He told me to take leave from work if I am not up for it. 

He has been away for 8 days... Today, he told me that he will have one day break, which is 8 days away from today! Masya Allah.... Lamanya lagi! Me feel like screaming! * I so miss you Bee. I feel like taking a day off and go see you but Ma is unwell and I need to take care of her. Sadness overload. Heh.* This waiting to see you in killing me but I know you are away for work. The sacrifice we are making for our future... With that in mind, bertabahlah.

Countdown starts today. 8 days to go.! 

Love Always, T.

P/S : Today, I block someone on IG for stalking me. I was informed that she hated me for what I am not sure why... I don't even know her personally! Does it bother me? Nope! Tapi yang menyampah tu dia buat silap dia salah kan kita plak. I have make life easier for you... You don't have to see my IG anymore. Takdelah sakit hati tu. Ye dak?! Takde lah buat dosa and bagi I pahala. Rest assured I don't hate you but I just don't want negativity around me.! Peace!

A beginning to a new journey....

Picking up from where I left this blog... Deleting the earlier post!  It's been a long time since I last posted on wrote anything but let's see how frequent I will write after this. (",) *Let's hope it will not be 2 years from now. Heh*

I just feel like writing tonight since I am all alone. K is away for shoot and I just can't sleep. I am unwell but not able to sleep. Probably because I have been sleeping the whole day today. *Bukannya takde assignment nak buat tapi... I just can't bring myself to read more articles or journals. Heh..*

Anyway, I wanted to just share that I have started on a new journey... I have decided to go back to school and get a master for myself. People as me why....? Is it for promotion? or because I want to be converted to a regular position... NO! NO! and NO. The only reason I am doing this is for myself. My self satisfaction. There isn't any other reasons besides self satisfaction. I even told myself if at any point I feel is too much for me to handle, I would have to decide either work or back to school. *Opps... Lupa nak mention, I am still working. So kerja sambil belajar ye kawan-kawan*

They ask me what make me do it... Well... I don't know. This one particular evening I was in front on my computer in the office, I texted  a friend asking MBA in UiTM bila intake?. He told me now. Deadline was like 5 days away. I went home and told K what if I were to go and get my masters? He knows I have put it on hold for 7-8 years. He told me to go for it and he wanted to just pay and apply for me. I told him that I have the weekend to write an essay. If I am able to write the essay in time, I will apply.  Guess what he did???!! He book us a staycation. Took me all the way to Melaka and told me to write. Sweet ke tidakkk???? *He is the sweetest. He wanted me to do it because he knows I wanted it as long as he can remember but we had other priorities and now that he is able to support me, he wants me to go for it.*

Come Monday, I went to the bank near the office. I paid for the application fees and K drove me all the way to Shah Alam. He accompanied me on my first step. Applying for my MBA. I told myself tak dapat pun takpe. At least dah cuba. 

Waited for quite a bit and finally found out from a friend of mine that I have applied for the wrong course and I would need to make amendments to the course code. When I did, I was called for an interview and I would have to sit for an English Test. At that time, I started doubting myself. Should I proceed or not? I was unsure. I just realised that it has been 14 years since my degree days. * Seperti biasa... Tish worries about everything and doubting her capabilities is her number one hobby*

K told me to just go for the interview and test dulu. Decide later if I was offered a place. Accompanied by my bestfriend, I submit my documents that was needed. I went for the interview and test session. I was telling K, I don't think I will get a place because the ones that was in the interview session with me, are young and most of them just finish their degree. Nak ke ambit orang yang dah tua ni. *Pengsan*

It was one evening while I was in Singapore accompanying K... *masa tu dia tengah shoot KTK 2* I saw an email saying that I was offered and I have secured a place. I was in doubts all over again. AGAIN! I did not tell K. I was not sure if I want to do it. I know K will ask me to just go for it. I on the other end, was afraid if I am not able to cope. 

Well, to cut the story short, I am now in my second semester. Alhamdullillah! :) I still have doubts occasionally but I do have a very good support system. I have K, my parents, colleagues & bosses, friends and also classmates telling me that I can do it. 

I know is not easy to juggle work and studying at the same but I shall do this. I just have to manage the best I could. As it is, no one make you do it Tish... you wanted it. There is so much on your plate but let's take it one step at a time. * I am now a manager to K, secretary to 3 directors, assisting recruitment - a new task on top on my current responsibilities, and a student. It's a lot to handle... but  for now, let's just give it a shot. Let's do this T!*

Love Always, T.

A student of UiTM again after 14 years. UiTM will always have a special place in my heart. It's where I meet K.