Me and my countdowns....

The one that are closest to me knows that I do countdown whenever K is away. I will track the days of him being away and the days till we are reunited! *Hahahhaa.... Sweet ke tidak??? Poyo kering je kan?? Hahaha.... * It helps keep me at ease when I start counting. I am not clingy but I just look forward to having him back whenever he is away. I believe that ramai je macam me... Cepat mengaku! Hiks...

This time around... Buat kali pertama daam sejarah, (sejarah gitewwww) I don't know when he will be coming back. Haish. All I know his involvement is 40 days out of 60 days tapi schedule tak menentu! I so hate the idea of not knowing. *If the shoot to kat KL takpelah jugak.... Ini all the way kat Perak! Huaghhh.... Nak gi sana tak bleh. Weekdays kerja... Weekend class! SEDIHHHHHHHHH!!*

I have been unwell the last few days. Actually sebelum K leave for shoot lagi. I had to go to the docs like twice for medication. *Deman mengada kut. Just because dah tahu chinta hati nak pergi lama kan... Pengsan! Honestly I was really sick. I was away from work for almost 6 days.* Alhamdullillah, I got a bit a better when K left. I did not want him to worry while he  is away... dah lah tak tahu when he is coming back. He has been really sweet. He calls and text me all time ensuring that I take my medicine and that I get enough rest. He told me to take leave from work if I am not up for it. 

He has been away for 8 days... Today, he told me that he will have one day break, which is 8 days away from today! Masya Allah.... Lamanya lagi! Me feel like screaming! * I so miss you Bee. I feel like taking a day off and go see you but Ma is unwell and I need to take care of her. Sadness overload. Heh.* This waiting to see you in killing me but I know you are away for work. The sacrifice we are making for our future... With that in mind, bertabahlah.

Countdown starts today. 8 days to go.! 

Love Always, T.

P/S : Today, I block someone on IG for stalking me. I was informed that she hated me for what I am not sure why... I don't even know her personally! Does it bother me? Nope! Tapi yang menyampah tu dia buat silap dia salah kan kita plak. I have make life easier for you... You don't have to see my IG anymore. Takdelah sakit hati tu. Ye dak?! Takde lah buat dosa and bagi I pahala. Rest assured I don't hate you but I just don't want negativity around me.! Peace!

A beginning to a new journey....

Picking up from where I left this blog... Deleting the earlier post!  It's been a long time since I last posted on wrote anything but let's see how frequent I will write after this. (",) *Let's hope it will not be 2 years from now. Heh*

I just feel like writing tonight since I am all alone. K is away for shoot and I just can't sleep. I am unwell but not able to sleep. Probably because I have been sleeping the whole day today. *Bukannya takde assignment nak buat tapi... I just can't bring myself to read more articles or journals. Heh..*

Anyway, I wanted to just share that I have started on a new journey... I have decided to go back to school and get a master for myself. People as me why....? Is it for promotion? or because I want to be converted to a regular position... NO! NO! and NO. The only reason I am doing this is for myself. My self satisfaction. There isn't any other reasons besides self satisfaction. I even told myself if at any point I feel is too much for me to handle, I would have to decide either work or back to school. *Opps... Lupa nak mention, I am still working. So kerja sambil belajar ye kawan-kawan*

They ask me what make me do it... Well... I don't know. This one particular evening I was in front on my computer in the office, I texted  a friend asking MBA in UiTM bila intake?. He told me now. Deadline was like 5 days away. I went home and told K what if I were to go and get my masters? He knows I have put it on hold for 7-8 years. He told me to go for it and he wanted to just pay and apply for me. I told him that I have the weekend to write an essay. If I am able to write the essay in time, I will apply.  Guess what he did???!! He book us a staycation. Took me all the way to Melaka and told me to write. Sweet ke tidakkk???? *He is the sweetest. He wanted me to do it because he knows I wanted it as long as he can remember but we had other priorities and now that he is able to support me, he wants me to go for it.*

Come Monday, I went to the bank near the office. I paid for the application fees and K drove me all the way to Shah Alam. He accompanied me on my first step. Applying for my MBA. I told myself tak dapat pun takpe. At least dah cuba. 

Waited for quite a bit and finally found out from a friend of mine that I have applied for the wrong course and I would need to make amendments to the course code. When I did, I was called for an interview and I would have to sit for an English Test. At that time, I started doubting myself. Should I proceed or not? I was unsure. I just realised that it has been 14 years since my degree days. * Seperti biasa... Tish worries about everything and doubting her capabilities is her number one hobby*

K told me to just go for the interview and test dulu. Decide later if I was offered a place. Accompanied by my bestfriend, I submit my documents that was needed. I went for the interview and test session. I was telling K, I don't think I will get a place because the ones that was in the interview session with me, are young and most of them just finish their degree. Nak ke ambit orang yang dah tua ni. *Pengsan*

It was one evening while I was in Singapore accompanying K... *masa tu dia tengah shoot KTK 2* I saw an email saying that I was offered and I have secured a place. I was in doubts all over again. AGAIN! I did not tell K. I was not sure if I want to do it. I know K will ask me to just go for it. I on the other end, was afraid if I am not able to cope. 

Well, to cut the story short, I am now in my second semester. Alhamdullillah! :) I still have doubts occasionally but I do have a very good support system. I have K, my parents, colleagues & bosses, friends and also classmates telling me that I can do it. 

I know is not easy to juggle work and studying at the same but I shall do this. I just have to manage the best I could. As it is, no one make you do it Tish... you wanted it. There is so much on your plate but let's take it one step at a time. * I am now a manager to K, secretary to 3 directors, assisting recruitment - a new task on top on my current responsibilities, and a student. It's a lot to handle... but  for now, let's just give it a shot. Let's do this T!*

Love Always, T.

A student of UiTM again after 14 years. UiTM will always have a special place in my heart. It's where I meet K.